I will never forget that night. That night when you said your goodbye, that goodbye which I thought was just one of your goodbyes and we’ll just forget and laugh about it the next day.

But that time, for the first time - I was wrong. Your goodbye that night was the last goodbye I heard from you. That goodbye I was not able to prepare myself of. That goodbye I never thought that would shatter me to pieces and would take me a year to pick up and feel whole again.

It has been a year. But the memories are still as fresh as the smell of the pillow I am hugging right now. 

I can still remember the smell of your neck whenever you are telling me to hug you tight at night before you go to sleep.

I can still feel those tears running down your face as it runs down on mine while you are hugging me so tight while I sleep (at least I pretended I do) and whispers how thankful you are to have me. I still wonder if it’s true. Isn’t it?

I can still remember those smile on your face whenever we get to see each other after a very long tiring day, how you made me feel that I was your peace in your fast-pacing stressful world.

I can still smell the coffee at Starbucks we used to hangout to, sitting beside each other because you wanted to be so close to me and snuggle me even thought people are looking at us. Watching you checking those papers, as you watch me write down my stories. I can still recall how we used to cheer each other up whenever we feel weary.

I can still recall how happy I was, just looking at you. Thinking it’s going to be forever.

And then it ended. Just like a fairy tale that ceases to have a happy ending.

But, I am happy for the both of us now. I am happy that you are happy. I am happy that someone’s making you happy. I am happy you are still achieving the goals you have set while we were together, as I am achieving mine.

I still believe that one day, one day we’re going to cross our paths again. And there will be pain (and it’s normal, I guess), but most importantly, I will smile. For I know we are at the better place when it happens. And I will be thankful because once upon a time, there was us. And it was magical.